Friday, December 31, 2010

31 Dec. 2010

Well, it's New Year's Eve.... another year come and nearly gone....  Wish I could think back on what I wanted to accomplish and sort the have dones from the maybe next years, but it's gone by as such a blur....  I did want to finish my novel by year's end, but fell flat as I let life get in the way and second guess myself....

Don't do that.

 Life cannot and should not get in the way of a life that is yours to live.  It's all a matter of choice -- especially the derailments. 

And, trust in yourself.  Who else do you have???

“Better to write for the self and have no public than to write for the public and have no self.” Cyril Connolly (critic & editor 1903-1974)
 This is what I hope to live by in the coming year, if nothing else.  One's work should always have a soul and writing it for another's standards is a surefire way to remove it.  A writer should always be themselves; not another's word hound.  So sad a lesson to have learned the hard way, but one I'm sure to be better for it.
 Tonight I've spent locked in front of the tv's weather radar -- twisters moving in -- and not organizing the chaos for a clean start to a new year.  Though, I did make great headway this afternoon.  For that, I am proud of myself.
My hopes for the new year: find peace within myself once more, take just one more step to making my life as I wish it to be -- I'm not as far off as I think sometimes.  After all, it's already my life.  So far, so good! And I wish to finish my novel; contribute to more charities (make an impact for the better) and be a good spouce (though, I've heard no complaint in the three years so far, I still wish to keep it that way. ;) Mine has been so great to me -- the love of my life).
Run of the mill, maybe, but also no.  My life, my hopes, my impacts are like no other's.  And to that I hold for strength in the coming year.  Hard times are sure to follow.  And all I have to do is outnumber them with my own positive views.
To all, Happy New Year!!!
To self, good job, for I know you'll do well...(the one pat on the back I allow myself for the year)
Well, it's New Year's Eve.... another year come and nearly gone.... may we make the most of what's left and blaze a trail through the one to come.... if each day is a clear slate then the next year has 365 to give....may we all use them well....
- Shadow

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

28 Dec. 2010

Well, Yule and Christmas have passed, finally.  Not that I've not enjoyed them, I have, they just did not feel as they should.  Mike and I exchanged a gift on Yule and enjoyed the evening.  Held it a few nights early actually so that he could enjoy the time and not rush it through.  Holidays are meant to be savored.  Afterward, we put in a movie then turned in for the night.  If we would have thought about it -- having had such a magical eve -- we would have taken a moment to step outside and enjoy a moment with the night (checked for snow).  But, we didn't.  Here in Memphis, it rarely snows sooner than the new year.  So, to think it would for Yule, seemed almost absurd.

Well, it snowed.  Just and inch, inch and a half on the rooftops.  But it had snowed.

Timing, even after the fact was . . . perfect.

For Christmas, we started our shopping on the 23rd.  Yeah, we're usually not that lax in our gifting.  But, what can you do?  Some years are just like this.  We finished all our running around around 1300 on the 24th.  But, still, we got it done and made the most of it.  Was even one of our better Christmases.  ;)  It even snowed! (This time, we looked).

In addition to more knitting supplies (can never have too many), also got a laser printer for my manuscripts -- now that a lot of publishers are going digital; so what, I got a laser printer!!! -- and a video game I've not played in 2 years.... WOW!!!  Also got more replacement strings for my yo-yos, and a Fushigi ball.  It has been rather disturbing, searching youtube for tutorials on Contact Juggling (how can you NOT know this is a simple ball???? Come on!!!) and seeing all the gripes about the Fushigi being FAKE.  Everyone apparently thinks it will levitate on its own.  By the gods, get an education.  Seriously.

Fushigi is nothing more than gimmick aimed at raising interest in the art of Contact Juggling.  Sole difference being it's cheaper than most acrylic balls and has a reflective center.  I asked for this being as I've not been able to get a foot in otherwise to Contact Juggling.  Can I say this enough???  The Fushigi is for Contact Juggling!!!

Having spent a few minutes with the ball over the past few days (two total), I've gotten the hang of a few minor tricks.  And, yes, I can make it "levitate."  It's the user, not the ball.  Grow up, really.

It does tire the hands.  May deter a number of people, but well worth the time to work past it.  Even the basics are fun!  Which is the whole point of doing anything, that part of it resonates as fun.  Otherwise, how would it work?

But, really?  Sooooooo many people honestly think this thing will float on its own.  This country's in trouble, I swear.  These whining baboons are going to run things after a while?  They are going to handle my retirement checks???

Fuck me.  Let's send them all to Mars -- where their little disappointment still won't float on its own power.  For crying out loud.  Seriously???

Things take effort.  You need to Practice!  Get off your arse and do something with your life.  Even that won't do it on its own.