Been back online for a few weeks now. Just, have not yet gotten caught up in the return, lol. A lot has changed since I last posted -- and some things not so much. Uncle still comes around. Scared the crap out of me the other night! How I love having him around. ;)
What has changed... We are now expecting our first child. Second ultrasound is today. We're so excited!! No clue as to what we will be having and, though we are considering finding out, we're not sure we want to. We want a boy solely to keep the surname going. Other than that, our utmost desire is a family. Neither sex would disappoint us.
Work has stopped a bit, at least on the novel -- and with so little left to write! Am withing the last 150 pages (of a 400 page book), would only take a week, maybe 1.5, to finish. But, as we learned from a previous pregnancy two years back, the stress is not good for the little one. We lost them early on. And all because I pushed myself to work instead of sitting out.
Never underestimate that....
Anyway, did find a new way to work and keep writing. Just need to get off the duff and do so. Honestly, been wondering if I've been away from short stories too long to write them again... Gotta love (and loath) self doubt.
Have a few planned out. Haha, spent 4.5 hours on outlining one a few nights ago. Which really made me realize the truth behind writing being the least lucrative profession. For one week's worth of work (50+ hours), I could make around $40? HAHAHAHA!!! Yup, in one publication. But, being publicized is worth more than that one week. It's an open door (or another one).
Have not written a short piece for publication in years and feeling the rust. But rust is very different from being green. I'm no novice. I just need to get back out there.
Later tonight, after Hubby heads back off to work, I'm going to sit down and get my butt back in gear. Not for the pay, and hardly for the print, but for our future. I want my kids to see what I do as something worth doing.
Yes, I want to be published again -- always. But, I want them to see it as a dream worth following -- even if not their own. My husband is always behind me. He loves to read my work (even the things I've no intention of making public). How I love him for that.
